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Being a stay at home parent is the last thing I ever thought I’d do with my life, I was going to be the working parent, my partner would stay at home and raise the children. I never wanted this but my body said otherwise, so here I am a stay at home parent.
And you know what I hate it. The never endingness, the constant repetition, always the same.
Wash dishes, cook food, do the laundry, pick up toys, kiss ouchies better, change dollys clothes, drink pretend cups of tea, wash dishes, cook food, do the laundry, pick up toys, make with playdough, clean up, wash dishes, cook food, do the laundry.
I search for the joy in the small moments, hold onto the little bits of happiness in each day because if I looked at the big picture I’d go stark raving mad.
I don’t mind doing housework, I rather enjoy the feeling of seeing a sparkly clean kitchen, a basket of freshly laundered washing being put away. But then it starts again, it just never ends, that kitchen doesn’t stay clean, those clothes get worn, the bed gets thrown up on, the pee doesn’t quite get into the toilet, there is mustard on the wall in the bathroom.
Somewhere in hell there is a punishment room which involves never endingness, doing the same job over and over again. Thinking you have finally finished, succeeded in conquering the mountain only to turn around and see it snuck up behind you ready to be done all over again.
Somedays it is harder than others to find those little moments of joy, to not let the big picture suffocate me.
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*sigh* I’m feeling a bit the same way today. I don’t mind my job when the house is clean and tidy (oh yeah, which seems to be never at the moment) but the neverendingness of it does get you down. Mind you, I’m glad I don’t *have* to go out and work either. On days like today I can take things easy and not have a “boss” breathing down my neck.
Comment by lightening April 28, 2008 @ 11:57 amSomeone need a vacation
I hate houseworks too … always the same over and over again, nobody to talk too … 
But Heidi makes great progress thanks to you 
You are the key to her achievements 
Comment by chiloe April 28, 2008 @ 4:44 pmI dont mind most things but oh I have ironing and I can never look at a neatly ironed pile and think well done, its always that there is more washing waiting to be done so it will all start again.
Comment by Helen April 28, 2008 @ 6:45 pmI know just how you feel, one thing after another, and another, and then repeat the whole process over again.
Comment by Joanne April 28, 2008 @ 9:21 pmChiloe is correct with what she says about Heidi, she would not be the child she is today without your love and patience.
You need to vary your routine. Girls’ night out once in a while. Take a day or two that’s just you and him. Do SOMETHING to make it a little different now and again. Don’t let what you do dry you out.
Comment by lceel April 29, 2008 @ 12:25 pmYep…
xx
Comment by Elissa April 29, 2008 @ 4:06 pmMy sentiments exactly. I used to be a stay at home Mom and now I work part-time. Sometimes it’s my job that keeps me sane. As you said the thing with housework is….. it’s like a revolving door, it never ends
Comment by Itching To Stitch April 30, 2008 @ 6:06 amLightening - Sorry you are feeling the same way, it is not at all fun. I think I’m my own worse enemy as I breathe down my own neck more than any boss ever did.
Chiloe - thank you, your comments always cheer me up. I do need a vacation, we are trying to work out how to manage it.
Helen - I stopped ironing when I had post natal depression, the doctor suggested it and I just never started up again.
Joanne - thank you for visiting and the support.
Lceel - I do need to shake it up a bit, you are very right.
Elissa - (((hugs my friend))) hope things are going smoothly in your world.
Itching to Stitch - A revolving door, very good way to describe housework. Doing volunteer work helps keep me sane (well mostly :grin
Comment by leechbabe April 30, 2008 @ 8:36 pmI’m late in reading/commenting, but I just have to add in, “me too!” With four kids, and the incredibly high cost of daycare, working just isn’t ‘working out’ for our family so I’m doing the SAHM routine at the moment and there area certainly days when I wonder ‘what’s the point?’. Thank heavens, there are also lots of days when things go more right than wrong. As for actually keeping up with the housework … that seems to be impossible!
Comment by Barbara May 1, 2008 @ 3:21 amBarbara - Thank heavens for those days that go right. I do so agree.
Comment by leechbabe May 1, 2008 @ 6:17 am