Introducing me:
We have enrolled Annie in swimming lessons and part of the deal is I have to be dressed to get in the pool ‘just in case’. So on Tuesday morning while Heidi was at Kinder the Annie monster and I went shopping for swim wear. Being the end of autumn the only place stocking swim wear was a large chain sports store. I got everything Annie needed fairly easily. Then I tried to find something for myself.
At which point I was totally and utterly humiliated.
The lady in the shop was very tactful and polite and she was blushing red in the face the whole time she tried to tell me what basically amounts to “you are too large for any swimwear in our store to fit you”.
I was doing well with the dietitian and the exercise last year and then we got Heidi’s diagnosis and I just decided ‘fuckit, enough to deal with in my life the diet, getting fit etc can wait’.
Tuesday I paid the price for that.
So I’m trying to figure out how to fit in the get fit / eat healthier stuff around our regular routine.
Officially I weigh 95kg - which is what I weighed 12 months ago when I quit trying to get fit and healthy, so at least I’ve not put on weight. My fitness has gone down, I know because I used to be able to easily walk up the hill near us and now I get out of breath.
Anyways I will figure it out, because you know… I want to figure it out. Total humiliation is motivational.
In the meantime - no swimming because the girls are both sick, Annie is vomiting left, right and centre and Heidi is head to toe covered in some kind of viral rash thingy. Oh the joy 
* Nice to know I can eat McDonalds almost daily, not exercise at all and not gain weight. One of the positive aspects of Crohns disease. :rolleyes:
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Your timing with this post is kind of eerie. The other day I got a look at myself in a full-length mirror and I’ve been in a stunned state of disbelief ever since. Surely that is not me. That’s not how I see myself or think of myself. I feel like someone stole my body and replaced it with someone else’s … and I am not at all happy about it.
For what it’s worth, you’re not alone.
Comment by Barbara May 16, 2008 @ 6:18 amHi sister
I won’t buy a swimsuit right now either … 
In France, the teacher is in charge of the whole thing: he should be able to dive if the child drown, riht? 
You can start by walking or exercising at home. Maybe cook heathlier if you like cooking ( I hate that
prefer fast food … ) You may try Weight Watcher and preparing your meal ahead. I know that one works really well. You get the book then do it at home (that’s what I try to do)
Anyway: we’re here to support you !!!
Comment by Chiloe May 16, 2008 @ 7:22 amSnap! I am about the same weight, I have got a swimsuit though(still got it’s tags on),but I don’t think I will wear it,we are going on holiday next week and I know I will not be able to put it on ,I have had 6 months to lose weight but have failed miserably.I hope you find the motivation you need!
Comment by brokenfairy May 16, 2008 @ 7:23 amYou know what I hate: when my mom stares at my tummy
make me more self conscious about my weight …
Comment by Chiloe May 16, 2008 @ 7:23 amoh the joys. let me know when you figure it out will you? lol
Comment by Bettina May 16, 2008 @ 9:59 amICK! Hate those times and those stores.
Comment by Jayne May 16, 2008 @ 11:42 amI stick to baggy t-shirts and bike shorts for those “you absolutely have to get in the water and do the swimming thing” moments.
Those stores only carry sizes for stick figures though so try not to feel too bad about it all. She SHOULD be the one with the red face - I think they should cater for a wider range of people.
Anyway, good luck with the getting fitter efforts. I’m trying really hard to focus on the health side of that kind of stuff more than the weight. Easier some days than others of course.
Comment by lightening May 16, 2008 @ 6:17 pmI know exactly how you feel. I am slightly heavier than you and have the same problem buying most clothes. Most clothing shops over here in the UK stop 3 to 4 sizes before my size. Great isn’t it - not! I’m just about to write an update on my blog about my weight loss.
Comment by Karen May 17, 2008 @ 6:18 amI always complain about gaining weight…I was for record…only 84 lbs…then now…I’m 100 to 101 lbs… The trick there I think is to give allowances on weight gain but maintain healthy lifestyle…like healthy diet…and regular walks…or any form of exercise! But then, I’m too lazy for those as well! :S
Comment by Mariposa May 17, 2008 @ 11:33 amI’d go for a pair of shorts if I were you… I absolutely HATE wearing swimwear - I avoid it at all costs!
Comment by Elissa May 17, 2008 @ 7:19 pmAnd I hope the girls improve soon… we had the chicken pox here a couple of weeks ago - despite supposedly being immunised!! (I have since discovered that there is still a 2 percent chance of getting the chicken pox even when immunised!)
Thank you everyone for the support and encouragement.
It seems we all walk this road at one point or another. Now is my turn.
Comment by leechbabe May 18, 2008 @ 11:45 am